My condolences, I cannot imaging the pain. It is very easy to say I know, but try not to torture yourself. The research certainly does not point to this being b

My condolences, I cannot imaging the pain. It is very easy to say I know, but try not to torture yourself. The research certainly does not point to this being black and white, more over, who knows what would have happened would you have had newer knowledge and acted differently. It's probably difficult and painful to imagine worse outcomes but who knows how well you handled things compared to what could have been? It's easier to imagine following all recent knowledge but still getting the same outcome. I'm sure you heard this all before.