It is nice to see that you are asking what I think are the truly meaningful questions. All too often we get caught up in the rat race we call this material life

It is nice to see that you are asking what I think are the truly meaningful questions. All too often we get caught up in the rat race we call this material life. My humble suggestion would be to put an intention out into the world that you would like to try and find an answer to your questions. The universe, I hope you will find, is all too willing to share the gift of timeless wisdom to a sincere seeker!