When my body dies I believe I will go to heaven and continue the journey I am currently on. Like yourself I have my existential moments. I have been kept awake

When my body dies I believe I will go to heaven and continue the journey I am currently on. Like yourself I have my existential moments. I have been kept awake at night thinking about the many events which take place in the universe at any one point in time. My understanding of existence, my own significance and life's purpose come from the teachings of Jesus. There is a book in the Bible's Old Testament, Ecclesiastes, which asks the very same questions you are asking. You may find it interesting to read. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ecclesiastes+1&version=NLT https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ecclesiastes+1&... Mark's Gospel in the New Testament is the shortest of the Gospels and you may find it interesting to read as well if you are interested in a perspective that life is not meaningless. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mark+1&version=NLT https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mark+1&version=... I am an old HNer in my 40s and have seen a number of people close to me die. I was with a friend while he died of HIV and lost another good friend to suicide. I said goodbye to my Father several years ago. It is good you are asking these questions now as many don't.