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After quitting my 2nd crap job in Nov I prepared to give everything I have and build a new box, but first recorded 50+ lectures in a couple months knowing that
by harlanji 8y ago
After quitting my 2nd crap job in Nov I prepared to give everything I have and build a new box, but first recorded 50+ lectures in a couple months knowing that I’d be impaired by my coming poverty (now 5mo in) and look forward to again thinking how I used to think. Poverty is extreme mental anguish, and I’m not even homeless until the end of the month (never been). And yet my decision making ability is already getting weak, I can barely think beyond whatever is in working memory or beyond tomorrow, forget big parts of days despite coding and live streaming it. (Eg. I know that I’ll never perform on a coding interview now, gotta attract opportunity). It’s my 3rd time being in poverty; tangental to pain but far from orthogonal so it feels like a decent anecdote. Variety is the spice of life, without resourses to eat or travel and with social connections rejecting the majority of the time, there’s both no point to turning on that circuitry and negative reinforcement for doing so... so the fact of mental handicap in subpar circumstances feels like common sense by now. Energy conservation, homeostasis.
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- smm2000 8y agoWhy would you do it? Why not find new job before quitting? I understand that some people can thrive when poor but it clearly does not work (based on this comment) for you.
- xab9 8y agoNot op. Sometimes the environment makes it nearly impossible to do a job hunt with an active job, also one time I was "convinced" that I'm not feeling good in the team so "probably" I should quit, like, right now (they did let me close the laptop though). I managed to find an okayish job in week, but I consider that an extreme luck. Fear of poverty is a mindset, for some it's stronger, for others it's less troublesome, to me it's strongly connected to childhood memories and not trusting my abilities.
- code_duck 8y agoNext, imagine that you have lost your job because you are so ill that you can’t work enough, and you also don’t have any insurance or savings. Since financial success usually requires hard work, which is mutually exclusive with poor health, the anguish and hardship of poverty very commonly comes in combination with serious illness.