I guess mine might be an unpopular opinion, I believe in a supreme being and am religious. Usually when people say thing like "Given we're (largely engineers an

I guess mine might be an unpopular opinion, I believe in a supreme being and am religious. Usually when people say thing like "Given we're (largely engineers and science minded folks here" they aren't looking for religious folks to step in and say anything. Nevertheless, I am and it brings me peace and joy. My beliefs help to answer a lot of the first question. When it comes to the second, I find a lot of meaning through life. That doesn't mean that I will leave some great legacy but I hope I help quite a few people along the way. I do that by changing my daily routine from what you describe. I don't work 9 - 5 and cap off my day with a prolonged cancer treatment, nor do I cap it off by thinking about my future need for a cancer treatment, heart surgery, or my impending death in anywhere from a few days to a few decades (for clarity, I am not currently dying any faster than a normal American middle ages male, but I will eventually die). So what do I do? Well I spend a huge amount of my spare time helping others with my family and friends. I volunteer evening in refugee shelters, homeless shelters, drug addiction treatment groups, food banks, and low cost clinics. Sometimes I just help people around my neighborhood who need it. This week on Monday I went and had a long conversation with an older woman in my neighborhood and her boyfriend (both in their 80's) before she was going in for a major heart surgery. We talked about her life, about her thoughts and feelings, about her fears, we prayed together. At the end of the evening she felt better, I felt amazing, and she had her surgery (she's doing very well). On Wednesday I went to another neighbors and my kids and I cleaned up her yard. She just lost her husband. She didn't ask for the help and I didn't know her real well, but we had a great time and now my family and I have a new friend. It was hard, hot, and dirty work, but who cares? At least I didn't sit up worrying about my mortality all night. I spent quite a few of the other nights at the refugee shelter. They always need a ton of help! My wife and kids love the people they meet. We have a great time and meet new people and learn new things. And I believe we make a difference. Is my life meaningless? I don't think so. I believe there is more after this life. However, even if there is nothing and we are just an extremely short blip on an extremely small blue dot around an unremarkable sun on one of the little spiral arms of a little insignificant galaxy, I still don't believe that life is meaningless. I enjoy the moments I have with the other insignificant blips that I come into contact with. My point in posting is not to brag, I don't really care for accolades. My point is to show meaning. So my answer to your major question is: find meaning in your life. I've given a few suggestions. Start right now on one. If you walk out of your house right now and look around, I bet you're find someone who needs you.