> I know the only thing that will help is finding some logical proof or reason why this couldn't happen No, it won't - You thought the only thing that would pu

> I know the only thing that will help is finding some logical proof or reason why this couldn't happen No, it won't - You thought the only thing that would put your mind at rest was going back to check. It didn't work, and you then thought the only thing would be to check again, and that didn't work either. You are not in a position to judge what will work, and not realising that is allowing you to keep looking for a quick fix. See this through with your therapist - trust him/her completely. Whether you like it or not, the cold facts state clearly that you cannot just make yourself 'see sense' - you need the help the therapist offers. Godd luck!