I was like that and thought that too. What I discovered now that I am in my 40s, is that my own mortality is not the problem (yet anyway). Age has taken some of

I was like that and thought that too. What I discovered now that I am in my 40s, is that my own mortality is not the problem (yet anyway). Age has taken some of its toll, but not enough to be able to really imagine old age. Like too many people I wrote about turning 40: http://markos.gaivo.net/articles/40.html http://markos.gaivo.net/articles/40.html It's mortality and fragility of closed ones that I have difficulty dealing with. An unexpected death last year really made me aware how relatively few times I am likely to still see my mother on our current 2-3 weeks schedule. Even optimistic hopes put this number in only few hundreds.