Yeah, I just want to echo this. As a periodic insomniac, I cannot imagine having your struggles with it. My own are bad enough. I've done the whole "month wit

Yeah, I just want to echo this. As a periodic insomniac, I cannot imagine having your struggles with it. My own are bad enough. I've done the whole "month with out sleeping" thing. It was hell. Being in that state where nothing feels like it helps is terrifying and frustrating. I cannot imagine having that my whole life and never being able to break out of it. I feel very, very lucky that meditation, sleep hygiene, and melatonin now help me keep mine reasonably in check. I'm sorry you got dealt that hand, it sounds like you're dealing with it far better than the vast majority of people would - including me.