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Much worse, something that can't be compared. Anyone would prefer a newborn which is an external person that you provide care and watch grow. Sure it will kee

• Fnoord 9y ago
  I had a severe psychosis in my life which took approx 2 months to recover from. In the beginning, I could not sleep and felt like I was fully awake when I slept. I couldn't sleep either, though I wanted to so badly, and my emotions were virtually non-existent (the lack of self-pity was fun though). It occurred a while after I was off SSRIs (Citalopram) but not right after. Newborn creates hormones, sure, but needs constant attention and requires high maintenance. There's no voluntary break. Ours needs to eat every 3 hrs. Can set my clock to it, and can't sleep right after feeding (she's gotta sleep first, or go through intestine pain). I know it isn't the end of the world, and given the psychosis I been through worse, but this is flat out rough [for me]. I wish I'd get positive emotions during weak moments. I mean, if I'd have that, they wouldn't be weak moments. After one hour of crying and trying to solve in every way I can think of I become desperate and feel lost. Its those moments I need to control myself and realise it isn't about me; its about her, our newborn. She's the one who's suffering, and doesn't know better. I wonder if it helps to cry with her.