Anti depressants along with support from my family and therapist saved my life. Prior to taking anti depressants I would get into moods so depressed that I woul

Anti depressants along with support from my family and therapist saved my life. Prior to taking anti depressants I would get into moods so depressed that I would have significant chest pain and headaches. The headaches were so severe that without any consideration I almost jumped from the roof of one my school buildings. Within the first week of taking anti depressants (wellbutrin, I later switched to prozac) I would at random moments of the day begin to remember funny memories. I would be walking to my dorm from class and remember a funny gag from the simpsons and break into a stupid grin. After two years on anti depressants I was able to stop taking them. I was able to do this by accepting and understanding that while I may have real reasons to be sad, the underlying reason that I was dwelling on these negative thoughts was my brain chemistry. Once I accepted this I was able to justify cheaper less harmful ways of medicating my depression. Whenever I began to feel depressed I would simply go to my tv and start watching episodes of `It's always sunny in philadelphia` or whatever comedy made me happy I think the worst mistake people with depression make is reinforcing their sadness by listening to sad music, watching sad movies or reading sad books when in fact they should be doing the opposite. They also allow their depression to become part of their identity.