I feel for you, this could happen to anyone, I admire your honesty posting this and sharing. All I can suggest is that you look at how you can help some people

I feel for you, this could happen to anyone, I admire your honesty posting this and sharing. All I can suggest is that you look at how you can help some people or causes you care about - I don't know what those would be... sick kids, kids in distress, animals, old people, culture, education, the environment, but something that matters to you. Perhaps this won't work, but at the worst I can't imagine it would be any less than neutral.