I sometimes get SP (couple times a year max) given long sessions of programming, sleep deprivation, weakened immune system. part of me recognizes them and is ab

I sometimes get SP (couple times a year max) given long sessions of programming, sleep deprivation, weakened immune system. part of me recognizes them and is able to "step aside" while mind stays busy generating colorful "wannabe frightening" pictures. whole thing reminds me muscle pain after hard workout but for the brain. most peculiar thing is that body sort of associates fear with liberation.