I work in film and visual art, and have always, odd as it is, associated my difficulty following film plots with my intrigue or indiosyncratic relationship to t

I work in film and visual art, and have always, odd as it is, associated my difficulty following film plots with my intrigue or indiosyncratic relationship to the art forms. I am also diagnosed. Film editing offers an interesting boundary of sorts in thinking about scope of perception or hierarchies of attention. I’ve always had a hard time just watching a film as a story experience but I find and appreciate plenty of elements about films to be plenty intrigued by almost any of them. I got very interested in media affect as a result, that is the experience of media intake. I have come to believe my (seemingly) unique sensitivity to aesthetics is somewhat undermined by a lack of sensitivity to poetics. This conclusion was painful to reach, but so far the realization has paid off in the way of understanding the limits of my abilities. On a more related note, I tend to experience poetics from the outside in, which causes me to miss out on much of the human experience, including the way many people enjoy films.