Rejecting your roots creates a void that must be filled with other ideas or addictions. Alas, in the US there are many Jews who believe in socialism. Hostility

Rejecting your roots creates a void that must be filled with other ideas or addictions. Alas, in the US there are many Jews who believe in socialism. Hostility to what was rejected is natural, so it's not surprising that you hate Israel so much. For most of the Jews outside of the US this outlook would seem strange. I think you may become a happier person if you escape your new "reality distortion field" and stop hating this inherent part of you and your family.