I can't speak for rvo. However, I'm legitimately concerned from what you wrote and that you've carried this on you since you were 11. Please, talk to someone (

I can't speak for rvo. However, I'm legitimately concerned from what you wrote and that you've carried this on you since you were 11. Please, talk to someone (like a consuelor or a therapist) and work it out. Bullies do exist. Sometimes, they teach you something, and sometimes they're just bullies. (I'm not excusing their behavior).