It’s clear in my opinion that you don’t like what you do. If you were gratified and enjoyed it you would not have these opinions. I recommend you look into Ma

It’s clear in my opinion that you don’t like what you do. If you were gratified and enjoyed it you would not have these opinions. I recommend you look into Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. And determine why you chose this path. Determine if it is indeed gratification that is lacking or something else. It seems to me you may have never really hit rock bottom and known what it’s like to lack basic requirements. This seems to me like an existential problem - you find world of Warcraft fun and passable but not Your work. Ask yourself why - not how to fix it. When you know why the action will be clear.