Check out "Active Self Protection", youtube channel. His channel serves exactly to this purpose. I also felt the same way as you described after watching a few

Check out "Active Self Protection", youtube channel. His channel serves exactly to this purpose. I also felt the same way as you described after watching a few of these. But I don't think there is any pragmatic reason at all to watch torture videos that terrorists do. It is not a defense confrontation. It is the aftermath, it serves no purpose, nothing to learn there.