I had to quit as I was particularly disturbed by what I saw as signs of professional deformation in me: a kind of hyper vigilance (especially about the risks fo

I had to quit as I was particularly disturbed by what I saw as signs of professional deformation in me: a kind of hyper vigilance (especially about the risks for my family). I was dreaming about the job an my own perception of reality shifted in a most concerning way. The terrible Las Vegas Shooting suddenly seemed entirely normal to me. I know we like to believe otherwise but an observation of human behavior en masse shows that we are preternaturally vicious. Extreme cruelty and violence is the default as much our need for connection and love. Those of us who've had the opportunity to observe or take part in humanity at it's most primal form, in the unsafe gaps between "civilization" and a well functioning state, often come away with our reality shattered. I know mine was. Lastly, the author shows signs of PTSD, granted this is an armchair assessment.