My advice is this. No one here can help you. They will say things, you might think ohh that makes sense, yeah I should do that, but those are just thoughts. Ha

My advice is this. No one here can help you. They will say things, you might think ohh that makes sense, yeah I should do that, but those are just thoughts. Habit is as much biological as mental. Pavlov showed for example a century back or so conditional behaviour and cue conditioning and all that. So, the way to fight nature is to obey her. It is too easy to come here and ask others, but thinking for yourself is not that hard. Just take your time to look at the ceiling and think for a bit and see what you come up with. If you do come up with anything, this time you actually gain understanding and not just knowledge.