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Danke. I'm cool for the most part right now. I've come to embrace my anxiety to an extent. If I'm able to type, then that means it's mostly not affecting me at

Danke. I'm cool for the most part right now. I've come to embrace my anxiety to an extent. If I'm able to type, then that means it's mostly not affecting me at the moment. Late night just has me feeling a lack of inhibition and dis-concern for my privacy on these matters. As far as caffeine goes, I don't know what I'd do without it. Up until recently I was on 2 doses of 3 cups (measurement unit) of espresso per day, but I've realized that I needed to up the dosage, or at least the source. So I went down to 1 dose of 3 cups of espresso + 1 caffeine pill later on, 1 Monster Energy (lowest caffeine content of all my sources I believe), and 1 cup of green tea. This also has the side benefit of pain relief from the muscle tear issues. As for software development, I'm in the process of learning the ins and outs of OAuth and OpenID Connect prior to implementing a sign up and login. Using Node, so it seems like there is a wealth of tutorials out there for passport, and apparently many of them are insecure (or so I've read), so I want to fully understand the concepts behind the most commonly accepted as secure protocols for Authorization and Authentication. Please correct me if I've said anything gibberish; still learning.

mattmanser 9y ago
Caffeine can cause anxiety, I gave it up for a while when I started suffering from panic attacks and it helped. I was lucky that I had no withdrawl headaches. Also, sleep. Good sleep, a bit of regular exercise and a bit of a routine are a great deal of help to stablizing your mood and anxieties. OAuth and OpenID are completely, ridiculously, utterly, pathetically over-complicated. It's one of the worst specs ever released. You do not need to know it to be a professional developer. Most professional developers will have no clue how it works. Trust me, I have over a decade of experience. If you can get a plug and play library, I really would just do that. Especially while learning development. I mean, if you're enjoying it, go ahead, but OAuth is basically stupid. A cruel joke inflicted on developers and a lesson in how not to make a spec.
- RandomInteger4 9y ago
  Understood, and that's generally what I've been taking away from it, but I have a mind towards security and while I don't need to fully understand it to be a developer, I must understand it for my own purposes, as I would (1) feel completely ashamed of myself for blindly following tutorials, especially on this topic, and (2) would not want to adopt the liability that comes with implementing an insecure system for a client that has a bigger wallet than me and wants to crush me financially even further for making a mistake that harmed their customers or business. Is such a scenario likely? I don't know; doubtful, but still, I'd feel like an impostor. Truthfully, the spec itself doesn't seem too difficult to understand; it's mostly my inability to stay focused that causes me the problems I deal with when studying and coding. Perhaps the true culprit of our times are browser tabs; the more I have open, the more overwhelming it becomes to consume them. As for caffeine and anxiety it's better than the depression that I feel with a lack of caffeine. Caffeine also has a kind of analgesic effect, or rather maybe the lack of caffeine causes me to have more pain in my spine for some reason. Sleep isn't too difficult with chronic melatonin use. Your body never adapts to melatonin as with other substances, so you can maintain the same dose (5mg in my case) with consistent efficacy. I'm out within 30 minutes after taking melatonin.

mattmanser 9y ago

Caffeine can cause anxiety, I gave it up for a while when I started suffering from panic attacks and it helped. I was lucky that I had no withdrawl headaches. Also, sleep. Good sleep, a bit of regular exercise and a bit of a routine are a great deal of help to stablizing your mood and anxieties. OAuth and OpenID are completely, ridiculously, utterly, pathetically over-complicated. It's one of the worst specs ever released. You do not need to know it to be a professional developer. Most professional developers will have no clue how it works. Trust me, I have over a decade of experience. If you can get a plug and play library, I really would just do that. Especially while learning development. I mean, if you're enjoying it, go ahead, but OAuth is basically stupid. A cruel joke inflicted on developers and a lesson in how not to make a spec.

RandomInteger4 9y ago
Understood, and that's generally what I've been taking away from it, but I have a mind towards security and while I don't need to fully understand it to be a developer, I must understand it for my own purposes, as I would (1) feel completely ashamed of myself for blindly following tutorials, especially on this topic, and (2) would not want to adopt the liability that comes with implementing an insecure system for a client that has a bigger wallet than me and wants to crush me financially even further for making a mistake that harmed their customers or business. Is such a scenario likely? I don't know; doubtful, but still, I'd feel like an impostor. Truthfully, the spec itself doesn't seem too difficult to understand; it's mostly my inability to stay focused that causes me the problems I deal with when studying and coding. Perhaps the true culprit of our times are browser tabs; the more I have open, the more overwhelming it becomes to consume them. As for caffeine and anxiety it's better than the depression that I feel with a lack of caffeine. Caffeine also has a kind of analgesic effect, or rather maybe the lack of caffeine causes me to have more pain in my spine for some reason. Sleep isn't too difficult with chronic melatonin use. Your body never adapts to melatonin as with other substances, so you can maintain the same dose (5mg in my case) with consistent efficacy. I'm out within 30 minutes after taking melatonin.