I just turned 39 but don't have the family bit (single, no kids, etc). I generally consider lazily doing PE problems and similar things as how I do take downti

I just turned 39 but don't have the family bit (single, no kids, etc). I generally consider lazily doing PE problems and similar things as how I do take downtime to breathe. No pressure there, and my only goal is to learn some more math, but in a stubborn manner. I am only interested in learning it if I can learn it deeply so that it truly makes sense. I got enough of 'memorize this bullshit and regurgitate it later without understanding' in school. It's only since leaving school I've been able to ENJOY mathematics.