I've been through a similar experience to what you've described, starting a bit over 10 years ago. It took till about 5-6 years ago to find useful answers and b

I've been through a similar experience to what you've described, starting a bit over 10 years ago. It took till about 5-6 years ago to find useful answers and beneficial treatments. It's taken till the past 2-3 years for real recovery to happen, and it's still ongoing. Meditation has been one item in my tool kit, but several other practices have beneficial too (some mainstream, some heterodox, some physical/medicinal/nutritional, some emotional). After 10+ years of working with this stuff in myself and others, I've learned to be very careful about what practices to undertake and what advice to offer others, so I won't share anything more here, but feel free to email me (address in profile) if you want some pointers.