But that doesn't contradict your parent poster's wish in any way. Read your quote again carefully. He says he did NOT seek professional help about this. (Only a

But that doesn't contradict your parent poster's wish in any way. Read your quote again carefully. He says he did NOT seek professional help about this. (Only about other issues, and seems he was never given good advice). He didn't seek professional advice about his central life-altering pain because he thought it would be as poor as the help he'd had for other things (by what sound like crappy doctors). He was probably wrong about that. People under enough emotional strain and pain sufficient to drive them to suicide are rarely thinking clearly when considering how to deal with that pain alone, no matter how intelligent and logical and reasonable they might otherwise be. Such a huge mental burden clouds your judgement. It's hard to think clearly about how to climb out of the swamp when you feel yourself drowning in it.