It is puzzling to me that you feel better about yourself living off of loans playing video games than working at a dead end job. Oh, if I'd thought I was livin

It is puzzling to me that you feel better about yourself living off of loans playing video games than working at a dead end job. Oh, if I'd thought I was living off of loans, I'd have been doomed, sure. Instead, I was just temporarily borrowing some money until things improved. That turned out to be true, and those people got paid back. The whole point was to live as though I were about to get a job paying what I'd been making, which helped enormously in believing that I was going to, which helped me stay optimistic over the months until I actually did, which meant I kept trying at an optimum sustained level, and that I could smile and joke when talking with recruiters and interviewers, rather than saying the minimum required to get off the phone in the expectation that it wouldn't matter anyway, etc. But enough of my life history, eh? :)