Perhaps you have never been ugly enough, or fat enough, or black enough, or xeno enough to catch flak from the beautiful people. But I have had enough of it th

Perhaps you have never been ugly enough, or fat enough, or black enough, or xeno enough to catch flak from the beautiful people. But I have had enough of it that I simply avoid being out in public. I know what I'm worth to me, but I also know that "society" doesn't want me hanging around where I can be seen. That's fine with me, because apparently society is full of nasty people and those who tacitly support their nastiness--people who are ugly on the inside, and people who find it easier to live with ugly on the inside than ugly on the outside. I certainly could be friends with people much more attractive than myself, but it is rather unlikely that we would ever meet in the first place. And it certainly would be awkward if we went to a party together, and they eventually realized I wasn't allowed through the front door. Or if I did make it in, and then everyone else left, because the party was no longer cool. Or if someone made an insulting joke at my expense, loudly enough for everyone to hear, and they had to either let it go or get involved in a public fracas. These things have actually happened; I am not just imagining things that might happen. You can be as sorry as you like, but that won't make the human track marks out there any more accepting, or me any more trusting. The only people I feel safe around by default are those who so obviously have something wrong with them that I know that we must share the experience of being crapped on. Everyone else has to prove they are not secretly a jerk trying to pull one over on the nerds. There's nothing you can do about it, really. Some people are cruel, and it's enough for you to not be one of them.