Thank you very much for this. It is serendipitous. I wish I had the fortune of simply talking to or being in the presence of a man of such calibre. Such men are

Thank you very much for this. It is serendipitous. I wish I had the fortune of simply talking to or being in the presence of a man of such calibre. Such men are indeed rare and often their compassion and humble wisdom is easily drowned out by the noisy loud-mouthed advice we often get from so many self-help gurus. I've been kicked to curb this year with failures, with skullduggerous cheats, with outright rejections and with rejections of no communication. A growing sense of a dark godawful dread has made residence in the core of my belly. I walk around with it everywhere I go. I feel more than ever that I have now truly and completely doomed my family's future. I should have instead remained, I now think, grinding at that safe but soulless day job before I even thought of cultivating that perilous and impossible journey - that falsely advertised dream to go out alone in consulting and into the business of enterprise bloody software. (A place where arse-kissing and networking matters more than your ability to produce software that is actually useful to clients!) I was hanging by that last thread of once abundant hope. This dastardly year is coming to its ignoble end, and I continue to stare solemnly at the targets I set for myself in January this year. It's deplorable. Campbell says "the real end is the journey" and that I need to possess the fire to drive me into battle fearlessly. I have to summon that courage. But I have to summon the courage to be honest first!