I think your mindset needs to change. Both of my parents (one is cisgender male, the other is cisgender female) have Computer Science degrees. My dad is 57 and

I think your mindset needs to change. Both of my parents (one is cisgender male, the other is cisgender female) have Computer Science degrees. My dad is 57 and still happily employed doing database adminstration. Like everyone that age he's been through his share of layoffs. We don't really talk much, but from what I can tell he generally kind of keeps a positive mindset with a focus on continual improvement (he's on his third masters degree now). My mom (also 57) on the other hand has a pretty negative world view (it sounds a lot like your MRA-like perspective, except the gender roles are reversed). Everything bad that happens to her is because of her race (black) or gender, at least according to her. She's now frequently unemployed, and unable to keep a roof over her head without support from her children. She also hasn't invested in improving her tech skills. My point here is that I think you need to have a mental model where you're in control of your life, not of one where you're a passive vessel being buffeted by a harsh, discriminatory capitalistic system. One further point, that I hope you don't take offensively is that you talk to someone about these feelings. A few months back I was chatting with my CEO's executive coach, and it went off in my head that I really should start talking to a therapist (I'd long resisted this thinking I wasn't mentally ill enough for it to work). Talking to a third party has been very useful for getting a better perspective on your own life, a perspective that your significant other, friends or family can't provide. Good luck!