I don't mean to be negative and I wish you well, but when did HN become about therapy and personal life counseling? You mention a therapist and a psychiatrist.

I don't mean to be negative and I wish you well, but when did HN become about therapy and personal life counseling? You mention a therapist and a psychiatrist. Shouldn't you be going to them with these problems? (Or some other professional if you don't trust them?) What makes you think the people here are at all qualified to give you advice on these matters? If you're looking for advice from a community of people who have dealt with these problems (depression, ADHD, etc.), you might have better luck somewhere where that is the goal, like patientslikeme.com.