You may find that undergraduate physics is a good match for your learning style. There is plenty of ridiculous math, but all of it is based in simple (!) model

You may find that undergraduate physics is a good match for your learning style. There is plenty of ridiculous math, but all of it is based in simple (!) models of the way the world actually works. Differential equations and vector calculus are relatively easy for visual thinkers, and the need to get the math to tell you precise answers drives you pretty naturally to some reasonable approximation of mathematical rigor. Where heavy mathematics demands insane amounts of rigor to make progress, physics is merely descriptive, so you can enjoy learning about the symmetry and beauty of things (like how all of chemistry falls out of quantum mechanics) without (all of) the mindlessly mechanistic formality (like proving that legendre polynomials are really a complete basis set). Also know that math (and physics for that matter) is almost universally poorly taught, so don't get discouraged by that.