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When I was depressed I had perfect trust in my ability to predict events, it was just that no matter how much I tried I couldn't predict a future where I weren'

When I was depressed I had perfect trust in my ability to predict events, it was just that no matter how much I tried I couldn't predict a future where I weren't constantly in agony. I got over it by letting go of most things that were hurting me like friends, family, dreams etc. So now I live a fairly unassuming life but I am content. It might sound a bit boring but it is much better than living in agony every day for the rest of your life.

sleepyandlazy 9y ago
How did you let go? I've tried things like meditation, but it always feels like things keep coming back.
- 123jay7 9y ago
  One doesn't "try" meditation. One becomes meditation.
- Klockan 9y ago
  It wasn't something I just decided to do, 15 years of hating my life eroded almost everything but my basic needs. Now I can look back at that time and with confidence say 'no' when asked to do something which would cause me to relapse.
einmaliger 9y ago
> it was just that no matter how much I tried I couldn't predict a future where I weren't constantly in agony That's a great way to put it. I had a few depressive episodes in my life, I know that these thoughts and feelings are symptoms. The inability to feel, even the hopelessness are symptoms of the disease. Usually, I can even pinpoint the cause of the episode. But another symptom is the inability to imagine a state of mind without depression. And no matter how rational you are, it is very difficult to believe in something that you cannot imagine.
seunosewa 9y ago
Take the medicines so you can enjoy an even better life.
- Klockan 9y ago
  I have been prescribed several kinds but they didn't really fix the problem. I have also had both CPT and psychoanalysis sessions for years and they didn't really help either. They took blood tests etc and found nothing. In the end I realized that they didn't understand my problem any better than I did so I stopped looking for help and just did my own thing.

sleepyandlazy 9y ago

How did you let go? I've tried things like meditation, but it always feels like things keep coming back.

123jay7 9y ago
One doesn't "try" meditation. One becomes meditation.
Klockan 9y ago
It wasn't something I just decided to do, 15 years of hating my life eroded almost everything but my basic needs. Now I can look back at that time and with confidence say 'no' when asked to do something which would cause me to relapse.

einmaliger 9y ago

> it was just that no matter how much I tried I couldn't predict a future where I weren't constantly in agony That's a great way to put it. I had a few depressive episodes in my life, I know that these thoughts and feelings are symptoms. The inability to feel, even the hopelessness are symptoms of the disease. Usually, I can even pinpoint the cause of the episode. But another symptom is the inability to imagine a state of mind without depression. And no matter how rational you are, it is very difficult to believe in something that you cannot imagine.

seunosewa 9y ago

Take the medicines so you can enjoy an even better life.

Klockan 9y ago
I have been prescribed several kinds but they didn't really fix the problem. I have also had both CPT and psychoanalysis sessions for years and they didn't really help either. They took blood tests etc and found nothing. In the end I realized that they didn't understand my problem any better than I did so I stopped looking for help and just did my own thing.