I knew the correct word and expression, I just didn't have it in mind at the right time ^^ I've read and written in English everyday for 10 years. I just can't

I knew the correct word and expression, I just didn't have it in mind at the right time ^^ I've read and written in English everyday for 10 years. I just can't speak it. One day I realized most news article I read were only translations of other articles. So I decided to skip the middle man.