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I was surprised to read this post because it echoes my sentiments down to the T. Another one is when I learn or read anything, I almost reflexively think about

by nexus2045 9y ago

I was surprised to read this post because it echoes my sentiments down to the T. Another one is when I learn or read anything, I almost reflexively think about how I might dispense that information in front of an audience (friends, a crowd) and "sound smart". That impending validation feels good. The only saddening conclusions I've come to are that "all I want is attention" and "I'm narcissistic".

saimiam 9y ago
After I asked this question of HackerNews, I went off to medium.com to read about art because they say art can save the heart. One thought exercise on creativity showed me for a brief second what intrinsic reward looks like. I'll try to find that post and share it with you. To summarize, 1. Imagine a red apple. It's your own red apple. 2. It floats in space in front of you not tied to the ground or the sky. 3. Add yellow streaks of ripeness to the apple. 4. Now change its color to a color never before seen in an apple 5. Give the apple a texture. 6. Give it a finish. 7. Buff it or scuff it, it's your apple. I did this exercise yesterday and when I woke up this morning, my apple was still with me. Though no one knew it existed, to me, it felt very real, very mine. I felt proud of that apple. As of this moment, I enjoy my little blog with zero daily visitors and monochromatic layout just as much as I love my imagined purple apple. So what if no one knows that my apple (or I, by extension) exists? I'm just glad I made it and it's there for me to remember. This may dissipate in the next hour but until then, I created something for its own sake, not because I got kudos for it. E1: dropped a double word
- saimiam 9y ago
  The apple exercise in question: https://medium.com/@Catylator/one-thing-you-can-do-to-feel-more-creative-today-c38e27c8448 https://medium.com/@Catylator/one-thing-you-can-do-to-feel-m...
- gt_ 9y ago
  Sincerely, thank you. I actually do this thing a lot, and one of these little ideas (usually artistic) can last from a day to about a week maybe. It is my own little idea that I will just appreciate and it stays good or it goes away. Maybe I start to judge it but the net yield is happiness in my own space. I like making art but have realized conceptualizing it or visualizing it gives me my own existence that I get to 'exclude others from' if I want to see it that way. I find this habit can often lead me to not make the actual art but I am in the process of realizing that is actually the beauty of it. I also do this through art history, too. This has am interesting angle to it. I habitually look for unconventional interpretations of art history but any will do. I often find little pieces of art history that I relate to a lot, or have personal theories of. Maybe others would think similarly but I don't know that and it doesn't matter. These relations are between me and a bunch of dead people and the lineage of the human mind.

saimiam 9y ago

After I asked this question of HackerNews, I went off to medium.com to read about art because they say art can save the heart. One thought exercise on creativity showed me for a brief second what intrinsic reward looks like. I'll try to find that post and share it with you. To summarize, 1. Imagine a red apple. It's your own red apple. 2. It floats in space in front of you not tied to the ground or the sky. 3. Add yellow streaks of ripeness to the apple. 4. Now change its color to a color never before seen in an apple 5. Give the apple a texture. 6. Give it a finish. 7. Buff it or scuff it, it's your apple. I did this exercise yesterday and when I woke up this morning, my apple was still with me. Though no one knew it existed, to me, it felt very real, very mine. I felt proud of that apple. As of this moment, I enjoy my little blog with zero daily visitors and monochromatic layout just as much as I love my imagined purple apple. So what if no one knows that my apple (or I, by extension) exists? I'm just glad I made it and it's there for me to remember. This may dissipate in the next hour but until then, I created something for its own sake, not because I got kudos for it. E1: dropped a double word

saimiam 9y ago
The apple exercise in question: https://medium.com/@Catylator/one-thing-you-can-do-to-feel-more-creative-today-c38e27c8448 https://medium.com/@Catylator/one-thing-you-can-do-to-feel-m...
gt_ 9y ago
Sincerely, thank you. I actually do this thing a lot, and one of these little ideas (usually artistic) can last from a day to about a week maybe. It is my own little idea that I will just appreciate and it stays good or it goes away. Maybe I start to judge it but the net yield is happiness in my own space. I like making art but have realized conceptualizing it or visualizing it gives me my own existence that I get to 'exclude others from' if I want to see it that way. I find this habit can often lead me to not make the actual art but I am in the process of realizing that is actually the beauty of it. I also do this through art history, too. This has am interesting angle to it. I habitually look for unconventional interpretations of art history but any will do. I often find little pieces of art history that I relate to a lot, or have personal theories of. Maybe others would think similarly but I don't know that and it doesn't matter. These relations are between me and a bunch of dead people and the lineage of the human mind.