First off, it is completely normal to feel this way. I think you're at the point where you're truly discovering who you are as a person. Do you feel a great sen

First off, it is completely normal to feel this way. I think you're at the point where you're truly discovering who you are as a person. Do you feel a great sense of unhappiness when you say you only do things if there's an audience? The aha moment for me was when I started diving into philosophy and in particular, Buddhist philosophy, in search of learning more about life and about myself. I've been practicing Nichiren Buddhism, where the belief is that our lives represent a tarnished mirror and it is only through life experiences where we polish ourselves to reveal who we truly are. Perhaps this is the beginning of your very own journey towards discovering yourself that would lead to doing things that you do find personally pleasurable.