College: tried to kill myself freshman year. Dropped out for 1.5 years. Came back, first-author on an important paper in a top-tier journal as an undergrad, go

College: tried to kill myself freshman year. Dropped out for 1.5 years. Came back, first-author on an important paper in a top-tier journal as an undergrad, gone through a series of machine learning research jobs (I've worked on thing you've used). I've got a great group of friends and am living well. The two years off entailed a lot of time working as an outdoor educator, plus heavy duty psychotherapy and lots of medication. Got off the medication a couple years after I went back. Turns out that building trusting and warm relationships and figuring out how to connect and care for others is really really important? I think the suicide attempt stemmed largely from not being able to adjust to having friends that cared about me as a person. I've spent a lot of time recovering the ability to trust.