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I don't think I've ever truly hit rock bottom, but I've definitely had some pretty shitty periods of my life. In fact, right now, I'd call this one of them. D

• logfromblammo 9y ago
  Same here. I have never hit rock bottom, but I have touched a muddy bottom quite a few times, as I keep getting shoved back into it by laughing dry people, up on the shore, wielding their 10' poles. The solution was to trudge downstream a bit and climb out in the shallows. I still harbor a lot of bitterness, mistrust, cynicism, and hostility, but I'm doing my best to just walk away from it. The current political climate in the US is definitely not helping.
  • 3131s 9y ago
    Same here. I have a lot of bitterness that is partially based on real things that happened to me, but moreso a vague existential feeling of being totally out of alignment with the cultures that I've lived in. Around 4 years ago I was really close to ending it all and had been putting myself in extremely dangerous situations to make money, so in desperation I booked a plane ticket and have only returned to the US once since then. I spent far too much of the last few years holed up in a tiny apartment in the 3rd world smoking weed and waiting for the apocalypse, but that's better than what I was doing in the US! Now I'm actually starting to have success as a freelance software developer, but some of the old feeling of malaise still persists. But, I do have a lot to be grateful for, so now that I've kicked most of my addictions I think I can move forward by focusing on those things.