You expressed what I feel (I'm in Singapore, speaking English, German as native language) so well and in a way that makes me question your point in the first pl

You expressed what I feel (I'm in Singapore, speaking English, German as native language) so well and in a way that makes me question your point in the first place.. :) More seriously though: I get along. I can talk and apart from having a different accent than everyone around me (because over here, _everyone_ has a special accent) there's not a huge problem. But I feel clumsy. Restricted. I wonder if this will slowly become less of a problem in the future, but so far I feel like a dim-witted version of me in most conversations. For me, two languages are hard. I envy everyone that grew up learning more than one language or generally feeling comfortable using more than a single language in general.