People expect more responsibilities out of me due to my years that I worked. But throughout most of my career, I worked jobs that lacked support for programmers

People expect more responsibilities out of me due to my years that I worked. But throughout most of my career, I worked jobs that lacked support for programmers, and no mentorships. I'm not ready to lead or teach without first being on the receiving end of that. But no company that has the resources for being taught skills by better programmers would give me a job, so I'm stuck at this road block.