I find many are willing to invest sparingly in a facade to retain 'usefulness' for whatever net they gain, while concurrently mocking & deriding my shortcomings

I find many are willing to invest sparingly in a facade to retain 'usefulness' for whatever net they gain, while concurrently mocking & deriding my shortcomings... I am socially awkward. This type if disingenuousness feels wrong to me, and as a result, I fail miserably in the 'networking' aspect of life.