I'm in the same boat. I have always loved and tried to make startups work. I read all the books and all that jazz. I took a giant leap of faith and failed. Slow

I'm in the same boat. I have always loved and tried to make startups work. I read all the books and all that jazz. I took a giant leap of faith and failed. Slowly but surely I have started to get my life in order again. I have tried sucide before and failed. After that I have refused to try again. I see that as the easy way. Now I'm starting to get my hopes back up and there are people around me that believe in me. I would highly recommend reading "think and grow rich". Ever heard of the book "the secret"? They ripped off that book. I often find myself too making new friends only to not keep them after a year or so. Sometimes less. That's part of life. Find something you like to do and obsess over it. That's what I'm doing now. Also you will always need balance in your life and the focus and motivation will come. Again, if you haven't read think and grow, read it and follow the instructions outlined within that book. If you have read it, read the damn thing again.