Thanks for this post, hope the conscious efforts become effortless soon and you are doing better with your anxiety! >I think I'm just one of these people who h

Thanks for this post, hope the conscious efforts become effortless soon and you are doing better with your anxiety! >I think I'm just one of these people who has always needed a crutch. Like I have an addictive personality and cannot do anything in moderation, I always seem to go at it hard or not at all. Feel ya man. Sometimes I think that about myself, actually I found it out when I was high recently. Lately smoking weed before sleep helps a lot to think about myself and my own problems and my conclusion is that even tho I'm what people would call an extrovert and everyone thinks I'm really social, I have anxiety and am always afraid that I will have nothing to talk about with people so I use alcohol and drugs as crutches. Regarding those other drugs, can't speak on LSD since I never did it (thinking about it tho), but MDMA is great yet I stick to "do it once in 3 months", tho I know people that abuse it on more than a weekly basis and I'd say they are addicted because it fucked up their brain chemistry so they keep doing it every few days. When you have an access to a huge amount, it easily becomes a habit.