Material success makes nobody happy, so do success. You don't feel happy while conquering, you feel successful. You feel only happy when you contemplate thing

Material success makes nobody happy, so do success. You don't feel happy while conquering, you feel successful. You feel only happy when you contemplate things. When you look at how much you studied and effort you put to have what you have today, this makes you happy, possibly. Hell, you can even by happy by contemplating your success. I can even read that from your post. But then that's just one thing. You need to contemplate other things. I for instance contemplate the sweet charm of my wife, the sweetness of my dog, the sound of my guitar. You need other stuff to do. I guess by know you also know that there's a lot of people who manage to be just as good as you or successful, how the world is filled with sad people with a good face and job. Perhaps it's time now to look into another direction. I find those people completely uninteresting and boring. Also, everybody does grow up knowing that they should have a job which pays them well and all, those are the things that society throw at your face, you just handled that well. You need to dig deep on yourself and find out what you actually wanted, and then take this from deep inside to outside, to make it your reality. It doesn't mean leaving your job or anything, it just means being you. A obvious choice is travelling, because you just visit a city and contemplate its beauty, the people and everything. No matter how rich or poor, there's beauty, there's only beauty because people are in the contemplating mood. But then you can turn this to what you want. You might have different tastes.