What you need is purpose. Read Man's Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl and watch How to know your life purpose in minutes by Adam Leipzig. You are talking

What you need is purpose. Read Man's Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl and watch How to know your life purpose in minutes by Adam Leipzig. You are talking about all these things that you kind of do or whatever but if you were filled with purpose then there would be that one thing which you must do and the rest would fall to the side and become irrelevant.