First off, realize that pushing against a wall takes effort, but neither you or the wall go very far. If you aren't feeling it, and aren't productive at all, d

First off, realize that pushing against a wall takes effort, but neither you or the wall go very far. If you aren't feeling it, and aren't productive at all, don't force it. Take a break. Do you feel better when you do other things? If you feel this way doing everything, it might be time to seek more help (I know you said it's hard because of reasons, but trust me, you're worth it.) Try to shake it up a bit, maybe a change of scenery (like library instead of Starbucks). If the short term things don't work, I agree with other people's suggestion about journaling. Taking stock of your daily condition might provide clues, and at least gives you the feeling of doing something to take control. The solutions you're talking about are good ones, but have you stuck with all of those? Sometimes these things take weeks or months to really kick in and help mood. Even most medications take a while. Give yourself some patience. And stick with the exercise, good diet, and routines - they certainly aren't hurting you!