it _is_ depressing. but you can work your way up from being nothing to being a second-rate hobbyist. just find a medium that doesn't feel like a chore to you an

it _is_ depressing. but you can work your way up from being nothing to being a second-rate hobbyist. just find a medium that doesn't feel like a chore to you and keep challenging yourself to do better. that also sounds a bit sad, but I think its worth it, even if a bit late.