That I am able only to produce "meaningless word salad" as you put it is yet another reminder of why I am out of here. Everything is fine. The world will go on

That I am able only to produce "meaningless word salad" as you put it is yet another reminder of why I am out of here. Everything is fine. The world will go on without me. The only thing wrong is that I'm still alive. You want me to study philosophy? My issues with the primal nature of humanity is merely the surface issue. I decided long ago as a child that such behaviors are enough reason to never procreate and planted the strong seed of incessant suicidality. Ive already spent a lifetime exploring complexity. Enough already.