I'm sorry for your loss. First off you don't owe anyone anything you can break down you can do what ever you need to do it's ok, death is hard to deal with and

I'm sorry for your loss. First off you don't owe anyone anything you can break down you can do what ever you need to do it's ok, death is hard to deal with and no one deals with it perfectly. We each deal with it in our own ways. The rest of this post is just how I deal so take it with a grain of salt. I don't think you can't look at it as your dad is gone rather you've got to look at it as his time has ended. And now that it's ended it's time to reflect and remember the times that you cherish and the good times the two of you had together and the stories of the good times that the rest of your family had together. Death is a terrible thing to go through but remembering the best makes it sting a little less. Also I know that this is HN and most folks on here are Atheist or Agnostic or what ever but there is a lot of comfort to be found in your faith during this time. I truly am sorry and for what it's worth I pray that God will bless you and your family and keep you in these troubling times.