In all seriousness it sounds like you are going through a mid-life crisis. Where you wake up one day, and think 'wtf am I doing with my life?'. I don't have an

In all seriousness it sounds like you are going through a mid-life crisis. Where you wake up one day, and think 'wtf am I doing with my life?'. I don't have any answers for you, but I do know where you are coming from though.