> Also consider psychotherapy to deal with what looks like ruminations and generally poor self-esteem. While I might not have put it that way, I +1 this. OP do

> Also consider psychotherapy to deal with what looks like ruminations and generally poor self-esteem. While I might not have put it that way, I +1 this. OP doesn't sound like a failure to me. Mental exhaustion from trying to keep the lights on at a start-up can definitely take its toll. I know I have similar thoughts when I've been burning the candle at both ends for too long.