I'm looking to use my long standing depression to actually motivate me. I've drift for years with enjoying much. Now I'm talking with myself to see where the pr

I'm looking to use my long standing depression to actually motivate me. I've drift for years with enjoying much. Now I'm talking with myself to see where the problems are and how to solve them. For the most part I've avoided pharmaceutical solutions. I'm trying to get away from booze. I'm using internal talk therapy with natural antidepressants like lemon balm and sardines. Time will tell.