Well, those alternate states of depression and euphoria sound like bipolar disorder, so it's probably a good idea to continue with the therapist. Copy pasting

Well, those alternate states of depression and euphoria sound like bipolar disorder, so it's probably a good idea to continue with the therapist. Copy pasting code is a start, as long as you understand the code, but it's good that you moved past that. You're still young, so if you want to be a programmer you're in a good position to improve. You can read some books, learn best practices, design patterns, depending on your programming language of choice studying for a certification will give a solid foundation and confidence. Then you can build something with everything you've learned.